Hello. I'm here to bore you. I have absolutely nothing to say. However, I thought I should post something, so I'm just going to say a bunch of random gibberish crap. Please feel free, at any time, day or night, to read it and be bored.
I've been too tired lately- it's an effort to get up and face the day, not that my day is that strenuous at all. When I come home, all I want to do is go and take a nap. Maybe it's just too much effort being me. Who else could I be for a change? No one. There's really no one I'd rather be than myself. Isn't that depressing? Maybe it's just too much effort being alive. But what if being dead takes a lot more effort? Then I'd be dead AND tired. That would suck. I think that's the best thing I could tell someone who's contemplating suicide: "Yes, but what if being dead is even worse?" I think the biggest kick in the ass would be if there was an infinite afterlife that was just a repeat of this one. You'd have the same job, same car, same lifestyle for all eternit- Damn, my monitor just blinked again & made a little FFTZZT noise. I hope it doesn't explode in my face. That would be a mess for Jen to come home and find, God forbid the kids to see. And, apart from having glass exploded into my skull, I'd be tired. This month is too damn expensive- far too expensive to buy a new monitor. Would you believe I just spent $350 getting my Grand Marquis inspected? Two steering joints were almost cracked through. Thank God it didn't happen when anyone was driving, though. And union dues are due at the end of the month, and I need new boots… sigh… What if I just got an IV, put some glucose solution in it, and attached it to my wrist? Would that be cheaper than eating? At least I would always get a seat in the handicap section of the bus. We deposited $300 in Savings Bonds we got as a wedding gift- would you believe they take eighteen years to mature? I always thought it was seven- so they were only worth $213. Better than nothing, I suppose, but… eighteen years? That must be inhumanly below inflation.